I was sick today and was reflective and worrying what
someone thought of me and then my mind wandered to one of my brother’s many
adventures. A much better thing to dwell
on than worry about what someone thinks right? Well, I was having a little
self-pity coveting his adventures, in which seems to be lacking in my life as
of late. The thing is it just hit. Brent loves life where he is at the moment.
It is not about the adventures, but it is about making life an adventure, even
if you live in an unadventurous place or are around unadventurous people. It is about living life to the fullest no
matter where you live, how old you are, or what your circumstances are. This
may seem random but God has been using Brent a lot lately to show me to live the
day to the fullest as if it is an adventure and not wait for the next best
thing.
I think I have been doing that in
my 5th grade class making an adventure out of it! So much so that I have
neglected necessary things such as sleep and now I am at home sick. Ha it is ok
though. Isn't it worth knowing that you poured all you had into something until
God has to stop you or God using my lack of wisdom of not getting enough sleep
to slow me down ?
When I was in my 20’s
I missed out on life waiting for something better instead of making myself
better and making the most of my circumstances.
I feel like I missed out at living life to enjoy it as much as I could.
Seriously, thinking about Brent’s life and I am challenged! I had been
jealous even resentful I could not have the life he is living now. Yes I could
have done what he is doing now. In my
20’s after Word of Life I was trying to pattern my life after an idea if what I
should be or what I thought people thought I should be. I did not make the most of what was in front
of me. I was often waiting for a better circumstance to make me more confident,
happy, loved, or fulfilled.
Thinking on
Brent’s life this morning really gave me a moment of release. His life reminded
me I do not have to hold onto trifles or things of little importance. During the day dream I was stopped dead in my tracks and realized how silly I was
being to worry about another teacher’s opinion of my teaching! It is
about living life to the fullest no matter where you live, how old you are, or
what your circumstances are and not being crippled by people's opinions! As my pastor would say, “Selah, think and act
on these things”
